I’m the girl who prefers one rose instead of a dozen. I’m the girl who would rather stay in on a friday night than go to a wild party with random strangers. I’m the girl who wouldn’t make you wait on her hand and foot, but would do anything to make you happy.

I’m the girl who would enjoy having a movie night rather than going to some fancy restaurant. I’m the girl who would rather stay up all night sharing secrets than going out and getting drunk. I’m the girl who won’t make you hold her bags, but would rather hold your hand instead.

I’m the girl who will love you more than anyone can possibly dream of. I’m the girl who would give the world to see you smile.

Updated my theme.

Because I’m crazily addicted to the song “All About Us” by He Is We, I finally decided to put its video on my blog. This song’s driving me insane and the music video… OMG the music video is love. Like nothing else in the world. I want a relationship like it. I wonder if this kind even exist. I bet, yes. Somewhere there’s this guy who loves his girl so much, no matter what.

My favorite lines are: “And every heart in the room will melt, this is a feeling I’ve never felt but it’s all, all about us.” Awww. The songwriter’s too in love. <3

Anyhow, that’s it. I’m gonna take a bath now. Ciao.

The past few days.

The past days, I was sick, at the same time enjoying luxury foods. Haha. My older brother just got home from South Korea and brought Korean biscuits and brownies for us. At first, I really don’t like to eat those since they are foreign to my tongue. Also, the characters/alphabet of the Korean language somehow bugs me. It reminds me of Chinese characters from Chinese products I don’t really trust. So yeah. My mom handed me one pack then I refused. The next day, my forever hungry stomach led me to finally grab the box and start eating that thing. Here’s how it looks like:

 Inside the boxes are the packs of biscuits. And those look like these:

They are like fried waffles. To my surprise, it was very tasty and addicting. Yummy! I dislike the brownies though. It taste like medicine. But the wrapper of the brownies looks really pretty. :)

I also had my first taste of J.CO Donuts.

I thought it was better than the other doughnut brands like GoNuts Donuts and Krispy Kreme, but I think it’s not. It was too sweet to the extent that I could vomit just by eating a piece. I ate like 80% chocolate then 20% dough. Haha. But this may not be applicable to all the types of donuts that they sell, okay.

So there. The past few days have been okay. I hope I’ll fully recover with my sickness already. Goodnight. :)

Losing trust.

I feel so terrible. Mali mali ang diagnosis ng mga doctor dito sa Cavite. I’m starting to lose trust sa mga pinagsasabi nila. I have always been an out-patient, I never stayed long in the hospital. E kasi naman hindi ata nila alam ang gagawin. Dafuq dude.

Last week, (thursday ata yun) when I went to the hospital to have my back checked up. I was having severe back pains to the extent that I can’t even lie down well. Then sabi ng doctor, it was just simple muscle spasm which will go away soon. She said that maybe I just overworked kaya sumakit, pero I really don’t believe that since wala naman ako ginagawa sa bahay, as in. Baka na-underwork kamo! Haha! She prescribed me a pain reliever (Celecoxib) which they say is usually prescribed to adults only. So bakit yan ang nireseta niyo sakin?

After 1 and a half days, I already drank 3 capsules of Celecoxib but it rarely works. Di naman nawawala yung sakit. Then I suspected na baka hindi lang basta basta pain reliever ang kailangan ko. The morning after, lalo na lumala yung back pain (supposed to be) ko. Paggising ko, umabot na hanggang sa chest yung sakit. Ang hirap huminga kahit yung pinakamababaw na hinga lang. That moment, I knew that I needed to consult the doctor again.

We went back to the hospital tapos ayun nga nireklamo ko mga nararamdaman ko then sabi ba naman ng doctor, “Masyado mo iniisip na may sakit ka. Feeling mo mamamatay ka na? Sige, ipapagawa namin sa’yo lahat ng tests para mapatunayan ko sa’yo na wala kang sakit at muscle spasm lang yan.” Dafuq? Tingin mo ba, doc, babalik balik ako sayo kung wala akong nararamdamang sakit? Ayusin mo trabaho mo.

Then ayun, nagpa-ECG (Electrocardiography) at chest x-ray ako. Since sa right side naman yung sakit, most likely, normal lang ECG ko kasi wala naman kinalaman sa heart yung sakit e. Pero still, sinunod ko sinabi ng doctor na maga-ECG kahit sayang pera. Ugh. Then the night after, I had Physical Therapy tapos back massage. Oh ano pa? Lahat na ginawa ko para gumaling! One day after pa malalaman exact results/reading ng x-ray at ECG. Binasa lang muna ng doctor and found out that I have mild Scoliosis. So may sakit nga ako, ano, doc? But still fucking pain reliever lang ang nireseta sakin plus multivitamins. Shit.

And then yesterday, binalikan namin yung reading ng x-ray at ECG pero wala pa daw yung ECG tapos yung x-ray, sabi may request daw na magpa-xray ulit ako ng lateral view. Then may referral na ko sa isang Pulmonologist. So by that referral, we thought they diagnosed that I potentially have Pneumonia. Wow. Akala ko Muscle Spasm lang? Then Scoliosis? Then Pneumonia? Ano ba talaga?

Then comes this day, this morning tinawagan ni mama yung ospital to verify if may reading na yung ECG ko. Sabi tatawag na lang daw sila samin if okay na. Then tinanong ni mama kung bakit may request for lateral view x-ray then referral to a Pulmonologist na ako. Is Scoliosis and Pneumonia related daw ba? Ako, personally, I think there’s no relationship between the two. And I strongly believe that I don’t have Pneumonia. Ni wala nga akong ubo e!

So up to now, wala pa rin yung tawag nila. Ano na kaya? Pending case ako? Nakakainis lang isipin na ilang araw/linggo na akong may sakit then mali mali pa yung diagnosis. You see, lahat ng sinabi ng doctor ginawa ko, lahat ng tests, sinunod ko, I did my part as a patient trying to seek for help. Sana naman gawin din nila yung best nila bilang doctor na tulungan yung mga pasyente nila. Kasi ako nagtitiwala ako sa lahat ng sinasabi nila, but now I feel like I’m not believing anymore. Last na check up na ‘to if ever, then sa Manila Doctors na kami next.

Nangyari na ‘to sa ate ko last year e. She was diagnosed na may dengue daw, then got confined. Pero mali pala yung diagnosis. Doctors found out that she had Ludwig’s Angina pala when my mom moved her to Manila Doctors Hospital. Ano na ba nangyayari sa mga doktor dito sa Cavite? -____-

Sobrang sama ng loob ko sa ospital na yun at sa mga doctor na tumingin sakin. Pano pala kung nakamamatay yung sakit ko? I could’ve died already but still they cannot diagnose my disease! So sana galingan na nila. Last na ‘to pag pinabalik ako, then I promise, di na ko papa-checkup dun ulit.

Just register a domain name and redirect your tumblr to your custom domain name. Well in my case, I used .co.cc

May 3.

Foreword: I’m getting really tired of blogging on packagedsmiles. Fortunately, I’m not losing a lot of followers. Haha. My back’s aching. My right hand’s tingling. I shouldn’t be using the computer now. But I’ll just survive this post.

Today, I extremely exercised my few knowledge on Journalism. I corrected essays & short stories written by 5th graders. It was fun reading compositions by younger people. You can really see who’s into writing or not.

Also, today I had another visit to the hospital (as usual) I’m so sick of being sick. Dayum.

Puno ang dash ko ng “Ask me random questions”
Ganun na ba sila kagigil magkaron ng message? Hihi. Wala lang. Ang ewan kasi.
Good night! :)